Sunday, October 3

Free Will ...

When God created the world, he drew up a Game Plan. He created each of us with a purpose, His purpose in mind. Long before we were even a thought to anything earthly we lived in His heart. It is His plan that, once here, we recognize Him for who He is and live our lives like we're grateful for it.


One of the beautiful parts about God, in my opinion, is that although He is worthy of our praise on a second by second basis; He decided to not force us to love Him. God gives you the ultimate choice, life with Him or death in the world.

Free will.

Any person in relationship with God -- notice I said relationship and not religion. Religion is insubstantial without relationship -- knows the riches and Glory of a life with God in Christ, but ... they're not who I'm here for, they already understand why we have it.

A lot of people don't understand free will so they asks questions of religion that only relationship can answer. "Why would God allow people to do bad things, to live bad lives, hurt, kill, steal? If there's a God, why do bad things happen period." The bottom line, most honest answer that exists is; it's not really for us to ask why, God does as He pleases because it's His WILL - but I understand -- that's not really good enough when you have a nagging doubt.

Let's look at this way, who wants to be loved because they've made it so the persons doing the loving has no choice what so ever. There would be no point. Appreciation, recognition, and true desire to love because of who we are is what makes having people love us feel so good. Now, that's just human emotion so surely God, being a far better lover than any human, feels that chosen love on a level we can't even fathom.

Thus, the decision of free will. It's all apart of the plan, His plan for the world.

Before God Created man, He created the heavens and all its host (angels). They were there with Him "In the beginning". Angels understood that they were just tiny pieces of God, through His will they exist. Because of this understanding, they recognize His Holy power and worship Him magnificently. According to His will, the plan, He creates an angel that is gorgeous, the Bible gives him a description in Revelations, but to me, he MUST have been as hot and I imagine Vin Diesel is if he's chocolate brown with locks! He's hot and he knows it and one day, he decides he should be worshipped because God isn't the best thing around. He gets a few angels to agree that he's awesome and takes it to God.

Because I wasn't there for the conversation, this is my interpretation of how the bible says it went.

This angel knows he the bomb, but He's forgotten why he's the bomb. He's got angels admiring his beauty all the time. Because of this admiration, the angel's head gets BIG! He starts feeling himself, hard. So he gets a couple angels who are blinded by his beauty and he corals them into forgetting who God is. He gets enough of them that he feels like He is no longer just a creation of God. He's got enough followers, he should be God's equal, he's just as good at getting a following. So one day he goes to God with his crew of wayward angels and makes a bold statement. "I've decided that I'm just as good as you are, and I bet you I can get more of them to do as I want than you can." God, being the One He is, said o.k. He cast that angel out and the plan for mankind was set into motion. That fallen angel, now cast out, immediately set to work.

According to the plan, God turned the angel loose on creation. Eve ate the apple of knowledge which opened all of our eyes to the disgraced angel's work on the flesh.

Every thing that angel does is to get us to see how beautiful he is, how much better our lives are without God's sovereign love. We all fall for that angel at some point, he's good at what he does. God doesn't stop us, instead he left us a map - The Bible.

We're supposed to pick up that map, read it, seek Him for the understanding of it, love it as we love Him, and finally - live with and by it. Following that map leads us away from the choice of death into live with Him. The Word of God is our solitude and salvation. It's the only counter action that God has taken in response to free will.

We can choose life within Him, His Word and all the blessings and tests that come with that; or we can choose death in the world of that fallen angel.

Free will is a blessing once you learn the Gifts of God, but - it is also the ultimate test of faith.

It all comes down to this ... He gave you life, with a plan, and he intends for you to choose Him.

Will you?

Know from whom you receive your blessings

Every day, I receive further confirmation that a life without God is riddled with a whole lot of where am I going. People with out God are always waiting to get their lives together. Seriously, think about it ... where are you right now? How many things in your life are if onlies, when-ifs, and when I get my life togethers are you living with? People that are waiting on themselves to do something because they can't, won't or don't accept that God does it all are floundering.

Failing to allow God to reign is the work of the enemy. There is no benefit to serving the fleshly ways of a dirtbag. God created us to fulfill His purpose, when you live a life with out Him. Nothing you do is blessed. Blessing don't come from Satan.

Thursday, September 16

EMPLOYED!

They offered me the job.

Jesus is a way maker.

The fast is going perfectly.

All things through Christ.

Sunday, September 12

Saturday, September 11

yes ... yes.. with every fiber, yes.

Tomorrow @ sundown (proper), I'm beginning a fast.

All things through Christ.

Friday, September 10

Everday I believe more

ZWent in for my interview yesterday, they liked me. I know this because they asked me to take the pre-employment drug screen. Just finished that ... no complications or issues, thank you Jesus for small and large miracles! Once the screening and background clears, I'll start work 10/4! ( I've already claimed this job as a delivery from God so I know its mine)

The Lord makes a way!

Wednesday, September 8

Greatful ...

I re-took the test today. Within 2 hours, they called me to come in tomorrow for an interview.

I CLAIM THIS JOB IN JESUS' HOLY NAME!

Thank you Jesus!

I've been smoking today, going back on the 24 hr trial tomorrow.

Thank you Father for strength!

JESUS IS THE BEST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME!

Small steps

I made it ...24 hrs, no cigarette.

Thank you Jesus

Tuesday, September 7

When you listen...

with the intention to hear, God will talk to you and you can almost always bet - He's going to blow your mind.

Thank you Jesus for speaking to me at least thrice(always wanted a reason so use that word) today...

1 - at 0130 9*7*10 I got the crazy idea to have the faith that God would see me through 24 hours with no ciggs when I've smoked a pack a day for all of my adult life.

1a - I've been quitting every month for about two years and I never get beyond the first hour of the first day, thus -- the crazy idea

1b - its 2140 (940 pm) and I have not had a cigg all day, better still, the "cravings", since prayer this mornin, have been little more than fleeting thoughts.



2 - in May I was laid off (i know, I know awww ...)... it's not really as tragic as it seems ... yet ... any way -

2a - a buddy of mine and then another home girl both told me that the same company was/is hiring. I applied but apparently I tanked the the application process. At first I was going to give up, but I kept having this nagging feeling (I freely admit it was the Holy Spirit) that I should contact the Hr Rep and say something, try to defend myself and skill. Well, I did and she very politely told me "sorry, you'll have to wait 6 months before you can apply again." -- bummed. She did go on to tell me about a temp company they use to fill spots. I immediately contacted them and began the application process ... hey work is work ... ya know.

2b -- today, the same Hr rep called to say, there was an error in the testing and she'd Like me to re-test tomorrow.

3. Reading this book ... What every Christian ought to know... this book is excellent and I truly believe the author was given this book through divine inspiration.

Part of today's reading ... rough recitation... "happiness is a thermometer, it responds to the environment, joy is a thermostat, it controls the environment."

Amen.

...still pressing w/less effort ...

Ok, 18 hrs into the 24 hr no smoking period and I'm doing far far better than I thought I'd be. yay me

This morning, I couldn't think of anything but cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette ... now it's cigarette, cigarette ... and instead of every minute, it's every hour.


Thank you Lord for your strength.

Growing ...

Blogging the Love of God to keep the cravings at bay ...

Walking with Christ is new to me and while I am loving the growth, the desire to not be so lacking is rough!. I want so desperately not to sin, but, I'm finding that its hard to keep it forefront before I sin. It's hard to keep it ... WWJD; when its been WWID my whole life. The challenge of NOT responding of my flesh ... hard to do! My programming says "you need to do a/b/c to feel better, defend/protect/help yourself" instead of "that's their problem projected on you. Yes, you are unhappy but the Lord will see you through this" ... each reaction is a choice. Here is where you are a.) secure b/c you have faith and you respond accordingly; or b.) you let the enemy continue to keep you unfaithful... he will always make it easy, he's nothing to be ... (you choose the 'impressed-esque' adverb) over, he just wants you to help him prove that those living in Adam don't really love God.

The Lord is divinely just, magnificent and wise ... we're supposed to trust Him because that's what He created you to do ...

O ... Kay ... and here's the blank stare of frustration and the aforementioned
"Roughness" ...

I know to trust God but I still, more often than not, end up letting the enemy use me IDK why...

I do know, when my faith is in Him, its easy to quell my flesh.

Faith, and its development, are all apart of the process of growth; I get it. As we get to know Him, we are more filled with Him and we change. But I feel like we also know Him by choosing Him. Choosing Him, shows faith, trust, and worship of Christ. This pleases the Father. We all know, when Dad is happy life is good!

Seeing and getting to know God through Christ is a blessing! When I get to experience God first hand, and there is no room for doubt about where the help came from, its a blessing that is wholly undeserved but a pull to faith.

I'm beginning to understand that it all boils down to obedience. When you listen to God, He's able to hear you.

... I press ...

I want a cigarette.

It seems that my mind wants my body to smoke a cigarette with a desperation I haven't had since I started 16 yrs ago.



Cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette.



Thank You Jesus for filling me with the strength to think and not act!

Amen.

Faith

Today, September 7, 2010, I will not smoke a cigarette

Faith grows in steps.

Thank You Jesus. Amen.